My weight loss reality.

For a long time now I have really wanted to lose weight but have never been completely honest about my habits and as a result have not lost any weight until now. I think I struggle because I am not obese, I have always been within a normal/healthy weight range so I never though I was unhealthy or out of shape but that is totally not true. About 2.5 years ago I started working-out in what I would call a regular basis. Going to the gym somewhere between 3-5 times a week but not with much consistency. I Though I have had a gym membership pretty much since I started HS (Fall 2002) I have never really worked-out with any regularity. In high school I took raquet sports, a complete joke of a gym class. It is exactly what you think raquet sports class would be; we played badminton, tennis, and raquent ball but of course not very well and not with much seriousness. It has been since the first of the year, 2009 that I have truly made an effort to lose weight. My start weight at that time was 132, I don’t really watch my weight but my all-time high was inching towards 140. According to BMI calculations I should be within 99 to 124 pounds. I keep telling myself that I really don’t have that much weight to lose, that I couldn’t really lose much but that’s not true either. I can literally grab handfuls of fat on my thighs, waist, smaller handfuls on my arms, back, etc. I keep telling myself that I just need to increase my work outs and that I should be able to eat whatever I want but this is completely not true. I don’t think I really eat bad things, which is good but I have a huge appetite. I can pretty much always eat, it is rare when I am completely satiated after a meal, I snack before I eat a meal, if I am invited to a friend’s for dinner I eat before hand because I don’t know when we will actually eat, I eat before I am invited over to a friends if I am not sure there will be food, I never leave food on my plate, if my husband doesn’t finish his meal I usually will or can… I can go on and on. To be fair I am not a complete pig but my body is very sensitive to food. If I don’t eat something by 6:30/7pm I and everyone around me knows. My body is very food driven. I have been telling myself for so long that this is just me and that I don’t have control over it but I do and my next big goal is to decrease the amount of food I take in.

I like to weigh in the first of each month, as of Monday the 3rd I weigh 121 pounds. I am pretty stoked about it. I know that the number is not the most important factor but I lots of my older clothes are fitting better, and lots of my newer clothes are not. I still have a ways to go before I am completely happy with my body but I think I am finally on my way. I don’t really have a weight goal in mind but I think I could lose another 10-15 pounds and be where I want to be. J and I last night after trivia, 121.

Goals:
1. I want to look good in a bikini
2. I want to be in good shape in my golden age
3. Run at least one mile in 8 minutes
4. Finish a half marathon by the time I am 27
5. Finish a full marathon by the time I am 30