8 True Things

I was inspired by this blog, to write this…


8 True Things

1. There are so many cute, crafty things that I want to do but when I get home I usually end up eating dinner and curling up on the couch with my hubby to watch a movie. Recently I learned to crochet; I can do that and watch movies… I really hate it, I want to be more crafty, do more on our remodel, and I just can’t get motivated.
2. I hold people to a really high standard, and for the most part I know it’s unrealistic. I know it’s unrealistic but at the same time I don’t want to surround myself with people that I don’t believe in, trust, admire, etc. I have ruined a lot of good friendships because people disappoint me. There are a few a really regret, some I am happy about. It’s the ones I regret that really bother me.
3. I have never really challenged myself. For the past year or two I have wanted a physical challenge, and for me that meant running a ½ marathon. It has been two years since I started saying this and I am hoping to run my first ½ marathon in October. My degree is in education and my program was pretty easy (sorry, I don’t mean to be offense to anyone who may have struggled in a similar program), I feel as though I probably never pursued any other career options because they might be have been difficult. Now, 3 years later I am planning to go back to school in a field I am really interested in, and dare I say a degree program that may be challenging.
4. I wish I had a strong family support system. I could say a lot about this but I don’t really want to get into it. A lot of this probably relates to my no. 2. But the truth is I am not really close to anyone in my family, and I don’t feel like I can go to my family for support, help, etc. My little brother, who is 16, is actually moving in with me for a while because of how bad his home life is (my previous home life). It makes me really sad.
5. I am struggling with my need for my career and my desire to have a family. Right now I don’t think we want kids but I just don’t see how we could have kids and keep my career intact. There is a really great book called The Bitch in the House that speaks to this issue exactly. Women in my generation, in my mother’s generation are now expected to have a career, but still remain a housewife, child care provider. I know we are not in a position to have kids, we probably won’t even think about it seriously for another five years, but this is really weighing on me. I guess I want to be able to do both well, without one or the other suffering, and I just don’t think that’s possible.
6. I miss music. When I was in high school I went to shows every weekend, The Nile was my home. My freshman year of high school I moved to a very, very small town in PA and I didn’t have a car. I only went to two shows the whole year, as many as I went to during Christmas break at home… I just kinda got out of the music scene, and the scene I was into kinda died, ska, but I still really miss going to see bands play, finding new bands, etc. Now I feel old going to certain shows…
7. I don’t feel like my image reflects who I am inside. When I started working in offices (sophomore year of college), I started wearing what I thought was appropriate work attire without wearing things that I necessary liked. Little by little I am working on finding a happy middle, and adding to my wardrobe. This also extends to my hair, tattoos, etc. I would like my hair to be more fun, for a lack of a better word. I would like a lot more tattoos, (working on that). But I also feel like I have been me for so long that it would be weird to up and change the way I dress, do my hair, etc.
8. I can’t wear white! I would really like to but I have sweat issues…. This is gross but it is true. A while back I started using this stuff called Certain Dry, you don’t sweat at all, and that started to freak me out, so I stopped, and now I just sweat a lot. Most of the time I don’t mind except when it comes to wearing white. All of my white tops have sweat stains and after a few wears I have to get rid of them.

I am suppose to write ten of these, but feeling really good about my 8. I am going to stop here.